After my trip began with an unexpected but beautiful change of plans: Sunset over Lake Havasu, instead of going through Phoenix, I should have known nothing was going to go as planned. The drive from Lake Havasu seemed like it would never end. To the point, that somewhere between Flagstaff AZ and Sedona, i finally had to pull over on the side of the road and crash. It was going to be too late to try to find a hotel, and heck, I’ve slept in worse places. What happened next, I could never have prepared for.

I would close my eyes, and as I would enter that state of in between (beta state). I would begin to feel and see my root chakra spinning in the most brilliant red. This energy continued to spiral from my root chakra to my crown chakra: Orange, yellow, green, light blue, indigo and purple, till the energy was electric, and all of a sudden there would be an explosion of energy through my entire body and I would fall asleep. This happened 3-5 times at least throughout the night! Pretty much every time I would have to re-situate myself.

The next morning I woke to the sun coming over the ridge. When I looked around I was in the middle of this incredible canyon, and only 5 minutes from the bridge that marked the Entering Sedona sign.
I knew my first thing I needed to do was find coffee and some breakfast, but it was only 5:30. after driving around I went back to my spot and slept till 7. By now the  city was popping. I decided to go hiking and try to find some places that would work for filming the scene I was supposed to film for Red Krokodil, a movie being produced and directed by Domiziano Christopharo. Didn’t find what I was looking for, but found some incredible places to hike. After scaling a rock formation in bare feet and sandals I made it to the top. When I raised my arms to the sky an energy began to pour through my body. I began to sing out, but it was just notes. I could hear their vibration inside me, then my voice would follow. As the notes were building in intensity, the wind began to follow. All of a sudden I felt like I was conducting a symphony of sound and nature. The crescendo, then the climax… I could hardly maintain my balance as the energy and notes poured from my body. Then it stopped: the notes, the wind the energy. I was at peace. and i knew what I had come to that point for, had happened.
By this point in my journey I have learned not to ask questions but just go with it. I will usually figure out what it means later, or maybe not; but, either way it was amazing.
I made it back down to my truck when all of a sudden some lady, who was driving by, hit her breaks and came back. She pulled up and asked if I was the one up above. Come to find out, you could hear and feel what was happening for miles. She had taken a picture and thanked me, saying through watching me and hearing me, it was such an inspiration. To this point, I’m still not sure what all happened.

There was one more place I wanted to check out as a possibility for a place to film, but by the time I got back to my room and spoke with the director, it was too late. I could no longer get a park pass for the next day. I couldn’t search out any other places to like that night because I needed a pass to get to the trails. It looked as if I was going to have to extend my stay in Sedona another day. But that wasn’t part of my plan… lol my plan…

So the next morning I am up and off. I have my coffee, I had breakfast, reserved my room another day, got a permit and away I went. But not to where I thought I was going. I saw a series of peaks off in a totally different part of town. Come to find out it was Cathedral Rock. But, I wanted to go around the back side. I figured it would be much less crowded. and although I did see a couple hikers, for the most part I had the entire range to myself. Just me, my Video camera and energy. It wasn’t long before I found myself standing on another peak singing. This time it was different… the energies kept jumping from masculine to feminine. Even my voice octaves were changing with the energy flowing through my body. And again, like the day before: as quick as it started it was over. Neither the energy or the singing happen again, at any other points, along any of my other hikes.
I found the spots I was looking for…. filmed scenes in 3 places. Rock climbing barefoot and running naked through vortexes, I was alive.
It was only 1:30 by the time I made it back to my truck. I had one more place I wanted to go, but not till sunset, or shortly there before. I wanted that energy of just before the sun begins to break.

I picked up a new friend to help me film. after I got him to scale a part of the rock, definitely not intended for hikers, we made it… and we went higher and higher till it seemed like I was on top of the world. As I reached out my hand, it was as if I was reaching right into the energy of the sun, and we were one. I was one with the rock, the sun, the wind. It was like magic.
We filmed the scene and headed back just in time to catch the sunset. and the biggest and most beautiful full moon coming over the opposite horrizon.
If I had my way, I would have already been gone and missed it all… oops
Someone told me a long time ago, the easiest way to make “GOD” Laugh, is to tell him you had a plan.
So many times in our lives we are so unsure of that of our foundation that we grab hold of ideas or things outside of ourselves to make us feel safe. But what happens when that which you are holding on to, disappears. Do you allow yourself to feel, and go with the flow? Are you able to continue to stand in your own light knowing everything will be just fine as long as you stay out of your own way and just allow life to happen.
What I am talking about here are the first 2 aspects of self or the first 2 chakras. I love how the beginning of my journey begins with opportunities to check my foundation, and see just how flexible I am. This trip is not about me, that is perfectly clear, but how I allow myself to follow spirit, and that of my guides. What am I willing to let go of to find peace, and in what ways is my ego still attached to the material world in a way that I am not able to find my own light.

As I stood on those peaks singing, and just standing with my hands extended into the universe and the loving breath of creation blowing my face, I feel as if I am beginning to understand the purpose of life, and what if feels like to truly live.

All is ONE, Honor ONE Another, Honor MySelf, Love is the Divine Power, and Surrender Self will to the Power of the Divine (LOVE)…. Through the mastery of these mantras, the mantras of all the physical aspects of self, You have the ability to Soar. Soar through your consciousness and soar to a place of truth within your own life.

Have a Great Day (or not) You Choose!

Here I sit, on a mound of rock and dirt, overlooking Lake Havasu and watching the first sunset of the rest of my life. Every moment, I have ever lived for, has lead to this point in time. And let me tell you… the last few days have been some of the hardest I have ever experienced. Letting go, while a battle between Ego, Faith and Surrender began.
Letting go of all that is safe: Letting go of all that is familiar: Letting go of anything and everything I once held onto that defined who and what I was. Sunday I turned in the keys to my apt, and by choice, am now homeless! Or, as my mom insists to look at it as, A Vagabond! Everything, and I mean EVERYTHING I own, fits in the back of my SUV!
For the last 3 days acid filled my stomach and my throat. Ignoring the emotions of experience being shared with friends of past and present, while saying good bye, I was making myself sick. I know, Emotions are nothing more than your Spirit’s way of saying “Hey stupid, pay attention to me. Slow Down! Take a moment and BREATHE!” It’s not that hard, but why couldn’t I do it?
Why? Because, I was at this point in my life that I can no longer see beyond what was in front of me. I was at that point in my life, where I was blind, and in the blindness I was being asked to walk in faith. This morning, I was running to the bathroom probably ever 30 minutes. I was scheduled to leave by 8, and didn’t get out of town till 1. I was scared. Scared not because I didn’t know that everything was going to be ok, but because once again, I had forgotten that I was worth the life I was given.
Setting out on a 7 week road trip across the US, still unclear of the path or direction I will follow, I left Los Angeles, CA. When I arrived in LA almost 5 years ago, I was beginning my journey of self discovery. I had no idea this is where I would end up. Only 2 months sober, from a 6 year Crystal Meth addiction, I landed in LA. I knew only 2 people in the whole city, who were putting me up. Over the course of the next 3 months, I began to go to 12 step meetings, meeting people, and learning how to live. By the End of the first 3 months in LA I had over 250 phone numbers in my phone of people I had met, who were willing to help me in any way they could to figure out how to live again.
No longer a part of that program, I will be eternally grateful for the tools of self discovery that were offered to me to find my path of spiritual understanding and Conscious Awakening. This is not the life I had ever hoped for. It is not the life I could have ever imagined for myself, and definitely not the life I would have ever tried to manifest. But here I sit, in the middle of a life that is beyond me, and beyond my wildest dreams. I am living a life of yes. A life of limitations and I can’t no longer exist. I am open to the abundance of all that is, for I know, understand and feel that abundance within me… for it is me, as it is ALSO YOU.
A couple months ago, a dear friend asked me, “What is the biggest obstacle you have had to overcome to get where you are today.” Upon sitting for a second, I realized that it was a 2 part answer. First, I had to realize that I had a “Life Worth Living”. Not just going through the motions of, but actually living. Once I began to understand what it meant to be living my life, and great things began happening within and all around me part 2 happened. I finally had to come to believe that “I WAS WORTH THE LIFE I WAS GIVEN!”
I remember the first time I heard those words come out of my mouth, “I am WORTH the life I was given!” I could hardly finish saying the words. My throat began to close up. My heart began to pound. Tears began to well up in my eyes. But finally, I said it.
This last couple weeks, has been about realizing just what I am worth. I know today, I am worth more than my things. I am worth more than my ego will allow me to feel. I am worth all the universe has to offer, for I am one with all things. I am LOVE, I am LIGHT, and I am PERFECTION>
Don’t get me wrong, I am not separate from my ego, I still make bad decision, I still get caught up in the world of attachment: to people, ideas, things and allow that horizontal attachment take me away from my vertical alignment of SELF. But, most importantly, I also know that it is only the person that I am in this moment that has the ability to learn and understand the lessons that are before me that will allow me to fulfill my purpose. Today, I am a single beat of my heart. Today, I am the gentle flow of the breath of creation. Today, I am the creator of my own truth, rather than the victim of my own life.

And Remember: Have a Great Day (or not) You Choose!!!